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I'm finding how terrible I am at keeping up with this blog. Since the last blog, things haven't changed. Troy is not back to work yet.  Ugh!! Working with multiple doctors to try and get the "go ahead" has proven to be quite frustrating. In all honesty, I'm so ready for Troy to go back to work. He's ready, I'm ready, everybody is ready. It will be a huge help to our relationship. Spending all this time together has not been the greatest thing on the planet for us, sometimes I just want to rip my haircut and scream. I like alone time and I can't remember the last time I had that. Seriously.   When I'm home he thinks a "to do" list is necessary. I kid you not he will ask me up to 10 times in a NIGHT what our plans are for the next day. I'm about ready to tell him to go start building a house or something, anything, really!  Today we ventured out and decided we were going to start some DIY projects, it actually just turned into me doing ...

hi oh, hi ho... It's back to work Troy goes!!  Yeah! What? I'm thinking the same thing. This all came a lot quicker than I expected. I thought there was NO way Vandenberg would release him the same week he saw him. However, he was a little worked up about troys latest incident involving the accident. Obviously, processing speed is something Troy struggles with. The more tasks at hand, the worse his processing speed gets. He is very hopeful that Troy is going to succeed when going back to work. And, I trust his decision. He will be start with 4 hours a day for the first two weeks. Then working our way back up to 8+ hours a day. He is going back to work as an apprentice rather than a journeyman but we gotta start small and work our way back up. I'm confident Troy will get there but slow and stead wins the race. All I care about is troys safety.  The original plan was for troy to start tomorrow. Unfortunately with all the paperwork between doctors and getting approval is takin...

Another sleepless night has hit again. My thoughts are going a million miles an hour tonight. Over the last couple weeks we have met and been introduced to a lot of people. They often say, "you two are an amazing couple". That phrase gives me such an uneasy feeling. I feel like; were defiantly far from amazing. In fact were anything but amazing. Our life is so far from perfect. We fight, and we have a lot of shit in our life. I try not to sugar coat anything because I don't want anyone to think that all is good and easy now, five months after. We struggle, a lot. Personally, I think we struggle more now than we did ever before. Life has changed dramatically for us. We have an incredible story but by no means does that make things any easier. If I could go back and change everything I would in a heart beat. After having a conversation tonight I know that I have a lot of healing to do in a lot of areas. Healing is hard and time consuming. Right now it feels next to impossib...

"You will have troubles. There will be sadness and hardship and hurt. But do not let these take over your life. Don't let them be all you think about. Learn to live above your troubles." Jesus Calling Kids I'd like to start with, it's Troys birthday!! He has made it to 24. Yes, that is quite the accomplishment for him! We started the day bright and early golfing at Maple Hill (inside). He was on cloud nine! It makes my heart so happy when I see him happy. Seriously, nothing better!  As some of you might know; troys was involved in a minor car accident this past week. He walked away with no bumps or bruises and very minimal damage to his truck. Thank The Lord! That was not the best phone call to get. I must say I didn't freak out as much as I thought I would have. The fact he called me and was talking to me, made me feel a weird kind of calm. Now, if the cops called, I would have freaked right out. I think I own the rights to do that now :)  I had an off feelin...

It will be five months post accident, tomorrow! Those months flew by, and I'm so glad!  Troy has his first day back to work tomorrow. He is doing a couple hours with his therapists showing them around so they can get a better idea of what he does as an electrician. So, I guess technically it's not really his first day back, but we will consider it anyway! After they get an idea of what all his job entails they will be able to recreate certain scenarios in therapy sessions. Getting him on track for going back on his own, safely.  We meet with Dr. Vandenberg on Monday. Which, I'm really excited for. I love hearing the updates on troys progress from the doctor and he is so excited about Troy. I love that! We are extremely blessed to have such an incredible, intelligent, personable doctor through this all. It's more exciting knowing he doesn't typically pick up patients like Troy but he was so interested he just had to have him.  We should know a lot more after next Mon...

Life has sure been crazy for us the last (almost) five months. I still can not get over the fact that it has already been that long. It seems like this all happened yesterday.  We have been swept up into life again; work, therapy, bills, keeping the house clean and so much more. The furtherest thing from our mind was a vacation. Until, my sweet grandparents offered us a place to stay with them in Gulf Shores, Alabama for a week. Oh. My. Word. I literally can't even explain the excitement of getting out of here for a while. Escaping from reality. We decided to take them up on the offer last minute and spent a few days on the shores of the Gulf. It wasn't very warm but being away from our life back home was the best thing for us. For the first time ever I felt like I could breathe. We sat on the beach and watched the weaves roll in. A part of me was racking my brain for what we could talk about but I realized, I can just sit here and take it all in while I can.  Our intention fo...