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Earlier this week I received a phone call from Mary Free Bed, reminding me I had to schedule an appointment for Troy. I couldn't help but think, where has the last year gone? Our physician, Dr. Vandenberg has been on a six month sebatical and plans to return beginning of the year just in time for our annual check up. It's quite amazing the relationship we have created with Dr. Vandenberg. We have been through a lot with him. He has stuck with us through our every struggle in this journey. There were times where I wanted to drop kick him but he has really done so much in getting Troy to where he is today. For that, we are so grateful!  As many of you know, Dr. Vandenberg didn't ever promise us Troy would go back as a journeyman electrican. In fact, he let us know many times that it may never happen. (That was one of those times drop kicking him sounded real good) Today, Troy has been working as a journeyman electrician for several months already. Even running the job at t...

Psalm 23  A Psalm of David. The  Lord  is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.  This verse has gotten me through the most challenging days of my life. I find myself reciting it here and there when the tough days come. What a huge burden it lifts from my heart when I am once again reminded of Gods grace and abundance of love He carries for me.  I came to this verse again tonight after a surprisingly tough recertification in my CPR training course. Note: I've taken this course many times, done actual CPR many times and yet tonight just brought it all back. As I sat in th...

Where to even start.  First off, sorry for the lack of updates. I have been obsessively hanging out with my kid because well, I'm obsessed with him. I keep telling myself that I have to get it out of my system now before he is a teenager and wants absolutely nothing to do with me. But that won't actually happen because I'll be his best friend forever.  Seriously though, if there was an award for best baby ever, Brody would get it. The kid is so laid back! Sometimes I feel something must be wrong with him. I woke up to him this morning pulling the blanket over his face and then laughing uncontrollably, at 10:15AM! I'm very seriously considering being done at one. Just kidding, but kind of not.  Brody is 6 months old already, I don't know when or how that happened but it did and now I want to cry. I've always felt that as I've gotten older the years go by faster. But then you have a kid and it literally is like living life in fast forward mode. Someone press p...

It's incredible how we can harbor so much love for such a small person. The kind of love that literally oozes from every pore. No one can prepare you for the ridiculous amount of love you will feel for your children. A love unlike any other. Becoming a mother has been the absolute biggest blessing of my entire life. I have always dreamed of the day I would welcome my own kids into this unpredictable world. There is no accomplishment greater for me, than my son. He is my world. Life has surely changed the last two months and although there are occasional sleepless nights and endless crying. I wouldn't change one single second. The moments seem to quickly slip away and time goes by too fast. One of my biggest regrets after Troys accident was not having enough pictures and videos that I could watch during those long days. I'm finding myself capturing as many moments as I can of our sweet boy. Each stage of life brings its excitement and challenges. I want to embrace them all a...

I've been a bit behind in updating. To my defense, life got a whole lot busier after multiple hospital stays  and then finally welcoming our son, Brody Lee into the world. Between nap time, feedings, diaper changings I found a blog wasn't high on my to do list.  We will start with the more important topic; Brody!  He was born on November 5 at 12:06 pm weighing in at 8lbs on the dot and 21 inches long. He is absolutely perfect. We couldn't imagine life without him. We are head over heals in love!  After struggling with high blood pressure for a few weeks I started having symptoms of pre eclampsia and was induced on Tuesday, November 3. I had just been at the doctors office for my weekly non stress test and was told to go in for blood work. This happened to be a weekly occurrence and I was getting pretty sick of the overnight hospital stay to be monitored so I was happy when I thought I had talked them into just getting blood work done and heading home. Well, when I go...

After having a not-so-good check up with Vandenberg this past August we were determined to make this one better. A few changes had been made to try and get a better idea of how Troy is doing at work. Each week the Journeyman he is selected to work with writes a review on how he did that week. They have to write a brief description of what work Troy did, what they thought he did well and something he could improve on. Over the last few months, I've noticed a huge increase in his confidence in and out of work. Which, is a step towards troys normal self.  Going into this appointment Troy was a little hesitant on getting excited. Understandably so. I quickly reminded him that worrying doesn't help anything. We go with the flow, that's how life is for us now. We know things don't always go our way but we have a choice on how we handle it.  Dr Vandenberg was thrilled with the updates. He likes to hear the story from both me and Troy. The story tends to be a little different b...

Roles have reversed here at the Bosch house. I all of the sudden became patient and Troy my care giver. Scary, I know. I'm not handling it well. I have this idea that it's just easier if I do things because they will get done the way I want them too.  Last Tuesday after work I landed myself back in Holland Hospital but this time as a patient. At my last appointment my BP was elevated and they told me to keep and eye on it. Throughout the weekend I had checked it three times a day; morning, noon and night. After a few days I had noticed a trend up. Of course it was after hours so I called in just to ask. Little did I know she would have me come in for testing, let alone not let me leave for the whole night either! I was a little upset which probably didn't help the BP issue. They kept saying, "your BP is scary and girl, your swollen!". All of that was true but I was convinced I could fix it by a good night sleep :) after IV fluids, meds, blood work and fetal monito...