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It's incredible how we can harbor so much love for such a small person. The kind of love that literally oozes from every pore. No one can prepare you for the ridiculous amount of love you will feel for your children. A love unlike any other. Becoming a mother has been the absolute biggest blessing of my entire life. I have always dreamed of the day I would welcome my own kids into this unpredictable world. There is no accomplishment greater for me, than my son. He is my world. Life has surely changed the last two months and although there are occasional sleepless nights and endless crying. I wouldn't change one single second. The moments seem to quickly slip away and time goes by too fast. One of my biggest regrets after Troys accident was not having enough pictures and videos that I could watch during those long days. I'm finding myself capturing as many moments as I can of our sweet boy. Each stage of life brings its excitement and challenges. I want to embrace them all a...

I've been a bit behind in updating. To my defense, life got a whole lot busier after multiple hospital stays  and then finally welcoming our son, Brody Lee into the world. Between nap time, feedings, diaper changings I found a blog wasn't high on my to do list.  We will start with the more important topic; Brody!  He was born on November 5 at 12:06 pm weighing in at 8lbs on the dot and 21 inches long. He is absolutely perfect. We couldn't imagine life without him. We are head over heals in love!  After struggling with high blood pressure for a few weeks I started having symptoms of pre eclampsia and was induced on Tuesday, November 3. I had just been at the doctors office for my weekly non stress test and was told to go in for blood work. This happened to be a weekly occurrence and I was getting pretty sick of the overnight hospital stay to be monitored so I was happy when I thought I had talked them into just getting blood work done and heading home. Well, when I go...

After having a not-so-good check up with Vandenberg this past August we were determined to make this one better. A few changes had been made to try and get a better idea of how Troy is doing at work. Each week the Journeyman he is selected to work with writes a review on how he did that week. They have to write a brief description of what work Troy did, what they thought he did well and something he could improve on. Over the last few months, I've noticed a huge increase in his confidence in and out of work. Which, is a step towards troys normal self.  Going into this appointment Troy was a little hesitant on getting excited. Understandably so. I quickly reminded him that worrying doesn't help anything. We go with the flow, that's how life is for us now. We know things don't always go our way but we have a choice on how we handle it.  Dr Vandenberg was thrilled with the updates. He likes to hear the story from both me and Troy. The story tends to be a little different b...

Roles have reversed here at the Bosch house. I all of the sudden became patient and Troy my care giver. Scary, I know. I'm not handling it well. I have this idea that it's just easier if I do things because they will get done the way I want them too.  Last Tuesday after work I landed myself back in Holland Hospital but this time as a patient. At my last appointment my BP was elevated and they told me to keep and eye on it. Throughout the weekend I had checked it three times a day; morning, noon and night. After a few days I had noticed a trend up. Of course it was after hours so I called in just to ask. Little did I know she would have me come in for testing, let alone not let me leave for the whole night either! I was a little upset which probably didn't help the BP issue. They kept saying, "your BP is scary and girl, your swollen!". All of that was true but I was convinced I could fix it by a good night sleep :) after IV fluids, meds, blood work and fetal monito...

This last weekend we were able to celebrate Troy and his huge accomplishments he has made this year. What a blessing it is to be a year out from his accident and to have him be in such a great place in his recovery. To be able to celebrate his life is something I appreciate so much more than I ever thought I would. He, as well as myself, have grown so much this past year and we can't help but to be grateful for all the love and support we have had going through the most difficult time of our lives. It has been quite the journey.  I'm so grateful for Troy's life and for his story of Gods faithfulness that he can share with others.  As some of you might know, I'm a big fan of celebrating things. Birthdays, anniversaries, accomplishments, etc. I like to consider, as most of you might agree, Troy's recovery a huge accomplishment. I'm not sure anyone truly understands the hard work and dedication it takes for someone to recover from a head injury (unless of course, ...

I'm going to be honest, I have gotten really bad at doing my devotions. There is no excuse for it and I'm pretty disappointed in myself. So, tonight I whipped out my handy dandy Jesus Calling devotional which has gotten me through the most difficult times in my life and started reading.  "When the path before you looks easy and straightforward, you may be tempted to go at alone instead of relying on Me. This is when you are in the greatest danger of stumbling. Ask my spirit to help you as you go each step of the way. Never neglect this glorious Source of strength within you."  We have fallen back into the chaos of life. Living day by day in the business this world brings. With doctors appointments, work schedules, preparing for a new baby. Everything seemed to trump my daily devotion. I'm all about living a boring life away from the drama of trauma. But, I know that trauma can come upon us so unexpectedly and leave us in a place of complete confusion emotionally, ...

I'm ready for some cooler weather; weather that requires coats (that won't zip) and boots. My favorite! I've had my fall decorations up for a while, my impatience seems to get the best of me every year.  We missed our annual apple picking last year so we made up for it this year and got a bunch! Troy requested only honey crisp this time around, I won't fight him on that. Honey crisp is our favorite and we have already made a few batches of grandmas apple crisp! Yum! That stuff sure doesn't last long around here :)  Troy put in his first ten hour day this past week. It seemed to go well, like most people, he was pretty tired when he got home. He popped a squat on the couch and that's where he stayed for the majority of the night. Heck, I'm not sure I would get up either after a 10 hour day and I have a perfectly healthy brain :)  I have been picking up lots of shifts at work and funny thing, I started swelling like it was no ones business. I think my body is ...